Out of The Wreckage

Since I was a kid, I was always told to have vast potential. My teachers, my mom, my dad, hell, even my ex-girlfriend was convinced of it. Now here I sit lost and wondering about what made them believe that. If it was true, I'd like to know how far down the drain my potential is and if there's any hope in salvaging it. To do so, I have to completely reset my routines; I have to change how I live from scratch.

This is Dave waging war on himself. No, he's not trying to be poetic. It really takes a fight to put his useless habits down. They've been with him so long... But it's about fucking time he grows up.

In Communication Research, an unannounced (yet graded) recitation flavored the day. Way to start a week, huh? But again, like a kid lost in a mall, he let his insecurities hang loose, cheating his way through it. But now, come to think of it, he could've brushed it off  his shoulder! It was so easy, a high school student can ace it! Man. Today, July 16, 2012, is the last day he will ever attempt to cheat academics. Period.

Dave has been a constant late-comer since elementary. Procrastination is a deep-seated problem of his, a habit since time immemorial. He's now in college and nothing has matured. Well, this week, his classmates are to see the last of it or the last of him. Dave, I don't care if you don't sleep at night. Sleep is for the weak, right? Then stay awake with all your friends over the phone until you all fucking die. Better late than never? It's because the time wasted wasn't yours. Stop being a pest. Commitments are commitments. After this week, you will never be willfully late again or you will resign from whatever it is you are late for. Period.

There were times when Dave could swear he'd sell his soul for a day away from his family. Little does he know, they're all he has. So, enough thinking of rebellion, enough adventuring, enough childishness. David! You are 18 fucking years old! I think they put up with enough of you but still, they take you in. This week is the last of you being a black sheep. Period.

This is not for my benefit, Dave, but yours. You won't be any good at work when you cheated to pass college. You won't be any good in the world if you don't value time. You won't be any good with anybody if you're an outcast from your own kind. Enough confining yourself in your own world. All that did was destroy you. It's time to head out of the wreckage and into the clearing. When the fog of war subsides, you'll see a better man standing.