Charisma-ish

I know of a creature, (let's call her Charisma), who made a habit out of ending her posts with songs she could relate to. This one's a classic example. Try spending five days with her and five nights with her blog. It's like touching both sides of the moon. Anyway, I opened up to her today. For what felt like the first time, I told someone else about a personal dilemma. Thinking back, it seemed awkward but I'm gonna make like Charisma and post a song later.

My relationship almost came to an end last night.

"Realizations." When my partner makes this a part of her sentence, her scribble, or her train of thought, my thoughts drop a little. Random thoughts that course through the air and into her head--that's how she defines it. I, for one, prefer a different definition. I think her definition isn't a definition at all. There's something going on beneath the surface here. And whatever that is has got to stop. Our relationship, as I narrated to Charisma's shortening attention span, is like a rope we both keep a hold of. These realizations act like an invisible rat: gnawing at what's left of our connection while keeping us unaware of its presence. This isn't the first time it happened, and I... only hope it'll be the last. We made a pact, that when these "realizations," pay her another visit, it's the last one I'll witness. You don't understand. They make her a different person.

We agreed to give us one last shot. I get a little nervous thinking about it, but as we all know, relationships have their highs and lows... and their beginnings and ends as well. Many could be quite poetic about them, but before I wet your screen with melodrama (like what status updates on Facebook seem to be fond of doing), here's the song I was going on about.

Kamikazee ft. Kyla - Huling Sayaw

This song is in Filipino, so to my foreign audience if there be any, it speaks of a failed affair (in a very alt-rock way.) "Huling Sayaw," means "last dance."

"Ito na ang ating huling sandali. Hindi na tayo magkakamali. Kasi wala ng bukas. Sulitin natin, ito na ang wakas. Kailangan na yata nating umuwi..."